10.30.2008

Eat, Sleep, Repeat.

This time, I'm not going to let you bring me down. I'm moving on, without you, because all you do is bring stress. All you do is bring me down. I've lost sight of who I am, and gave so much more into this. You're selfish, ignorant, and immature. Don't tell me that I need to grow up, because I don't. I don't need any of this, and still, I've put myself into it. Thrown myself into so many relationships that just.. fail.

And you know what? I'm not going to be the one to regret the choices I make. Someday, in your life, you will think that this is all a mistake. And then you'll lay in your bed at night, worrying about it. Not being able to sleep, not being able to eat, and you will have to live with what you've created.

I hope you do. I hope you never fucking forget this. I am not the loser in this situation; You are. One day, it will get to you, and it will eat you alive. You've already broken my heart, so how about, for a second, you think of what you're missing out on - someone who cares, someone who was willing to be with you, even thousands of miles away. Someone who believed distance was nothing. That love could prevail. But you took that from me, and it will never be the same.

I hope it was worth it.